Daily Crap
I find it funny how people can get used to the daily grind of work. I only just graduated and already am beginning to wonder why the hell am I doing this. I think I can answer this question for myself by saying I enjoy paychecks. But I mean seriously why is it that people are willing to subject themselves to a job they dont like for 20+ years? A main example of this I think is Judy who works behind me day after day doing the same thing for the past 10 years. She constantly gets work dumped on her that noone else wants to do and is very unappreciated for what she does do. I think the need for that consistency is why eventually people get so comfortable that they arent willing to take any risks to get noticed or even do the things they possibly once dreamed of doing when they were younger. I think that no matter what I have to promise myself that I am not going to grow into a person who trys to overall remain unnoticed and go for the things that I want in this life.
Talking about this just makes me think about my friend and I who both wish to go to Japan for an extended period of time. I am not sure whether this is due to our fascination with historical Japan and the Japanese culture or because after having our lives dictated to us by others for the past 23+ years we both seek to have something that we know was decided by us. All our lives we have heard that schooling was the most important thing to finish above all else but we never thought to question it and sometimes I am left wondering. I dont regret the decision to come to College or joining Theta Chi because without either of these things I would not be who I am today. I want to do the things that seem adventurous to me. Like skydiving, white water rafting, visiting foreign countries and other things such as these. Japan I think would be a wonderful start to this. Also I think that stepping back from the life I currently have to go to Japan would give me a more valuable appreciation for what I do have. I think I need to step back and evaluate what it means to be me and whether the past 20 years have been me turning to the cautious path instead of something far more valuable. Self discovery is something I very much would like to have happen but I dont think its possible to understand what goes on in my head. I think I am even sarcastic to myself when I dont think I should be. Sarcasm is a tool my wit has developed as a source of entertainment for others and also as a blade to annoy and confuse the people I dont like. I just sometimes wonder if my thoughts are not sometimes my own worst enemy when it comes to trying new things.
This just brings me to my next point on why I hate stupid people. People in general have a way to annoy more than I could possibly annoy them. I find it irritating that although I consider myself and the people I am around for the most part competent and logical people the people I cannot understand or accept are the people who lack the common sense for even the most basic tasks. When you have people out there making it necessary for a website dedicated to people who end up getting themselves killed for stupid reasons (meaning the Darwin Awards) it makes me fear for the future of the human race sometimes. I think Darwinism still exists for these people because even though it seems like there are more people socially incapable of a decent idea its good to know that they are removing themselves from the gene pool through their own stupidity. I can honestly believe that movies like Idiocracy could possibly happen in another 500-1000 years. I dont know how to solve this but its not like it would do much at the moment anyways.
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